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Found this chilling in my drafts…. Comments on my current state of mind.

Last night (March 10th) was our (Chi Omega’s) date party with 3 other houses KD, AGR, Sigma Nu (plus dates, it was a massive date party!) and we went to the racetrack! 

It really didn’t go as I had planned(Mainly because of my date)but we (my date, my sister and her date that I set her up with) ate dinner and gambled a little bit. We watched the starting of one race but didn’t really dance because it was not crowded/dark enough for the boys to feel comfortable(and they weren’t drinking like they thought they would be). But that’s fine. I had a good time with my date and friends. 

I didn’t really take many pictures but here: 

My KD best friend and I before we loaded the buses! So thankful that she had a great time with a phi delt like I did! (love her to death)

I had the privilege of taking the president of Phi Delta Theta with me to my date party! I had such a good time. (Can I just get a good haha about this now?)

My beautiful sister, Kelsy and I! Please note that those blue heels (though fierce) were killing my feet by the end of the night! (Yeah, I love those heels but they hurt. Also love Kelsy. So glad we had Calc together last semester)

This is a really terrible picture. 
I put $20 dollars in a penny slot machine and max bet that machine for the first time I gambled EVER in my ENTIRE life.

I wound up winning $73. Needless to say, I’m never gambling again for the rest of my life!

If there are any country girls out there, I think you would consider this hilarious.

If there are any city girls out there, I think you would cringe with me.

If there are any type of interns that think they won’t like what is to come, you can come over here and commiserate with me.

But seriously, this will be interesting.

The City Girl who tried to pretend she was AG

So there’s that.

I got an internship this summer working with Pioneer Hi-Bred in Garden City, Kansas.
It’s an amazing opportunity.
It will look great on my resume.

I’m terrified.

Positives

1. I gained the six best friends that a girl could ask for. I never thought it would possible to love these girls so much much after knowing them for such a short time. We all get on each others nerves constantly but we do it out of love. We look out for each other, keep the boys away, hold up each other when we get too.. well you know. I know they don’t read my tumblr but they know who they are. Even though we aren’t sisters in our sororities, we are sister under Gamma Kappa Chi Mu and I love you to the earth and back. Being five hours away + from all of you is NOT ok. 
2. SUNDAY MORNING BRUNCH. If my followers don’t do that with their friends, starting doing it now. It’s the best way to cure a hangover, best way to get updated on the weekend, and the best stories always come out during brunch. 
3. Gaining 200+ sisters. Joining Chi Omega was a life altering decision. I’ve made mistakes but by being a part of an organization that is bigger than myself it made me grow up and be more mature.
4. Deciding my major is what I truly wanted to be doing with my life. 
5. Landing my first internship with Pioneer Hi-Bred. 
6. Meeting all the cute fraternity boys (ow! ow!) 
7. Growing up. 
8. Learning how to party the right way
9. Learning to live with someone else that is not your family
10. Realizing that coming to Oklahoma State was a decision that I have not regretted since the day I made it. I love my school! 

Negatives

1. Realizing most boys at this age only wanting one thing.
2. Being played over the first semester by one boy and the second by another. 
3. Grades
4. Realizing that getting out of undergraduate without student loans might not be as possible as I thought
5. Realizing I still have a lot of growing up to do
6. Drama carries over from high school and it’s just as stupid as it was in high school
7. Trusting girls so much that when they hurt you it hurts REALLY bad
8. Trusting guys even though you shouldn’t 
9. Taking a full year to learn my study habits have to change 
10. Living so far away from my best friends this summer. I can’t help but cry when they leave. The hardest one was the first one to go. 

I’m taking: 

• 5 hours- chem 2
• 4 hours- Calc 1
• 3 hours - Interm. composition Spanish
• 3 hours- Applied Plant Science 
• 1 hour- Seminar 

If I did well on the final for Chem I would get an A… but instead I failed it and am now getting a C. 

Calc 1 my professor is just… an idiot. If I’m consistantly 20 points above class average (which is a 50%) I shouldn’t need to get an A to get an A. Curve the class. 

There is something about Spanish that I just cannot get A’s in. 

If I don’t get an A in plant science I will START A RIOT. 

I hate my life.

Goodbye Oklahoma State. It was REALLY nice knowing ya. 

Our date party got cancelled. 

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I don’t feel connected to even my best friend from high school. 

I guess that’s part of college and growing up but it’s really bumming me out.

to the racetracks..

With AGR Sigma Nu and KD,

I want to ask the someone but we are def not on that level.

Now I begin my search AGAIN to ask someone.